...dammit I didn't think that I was going to make it!!!!
sure enough on weekends I go and do some travel to some uncertain place... job stuff and help stuff too... but this time I almost killed myself!!! I was riding my bike like over 80Km/h (may vary) but then after a turn to the left there was this huge hole in the street!!! (about six meter diameter and 4 of deep!!!!) and I was like OMG!!! I am so dead!!!! but past bike incidents had teach my instinct to kick in when my mind is in shock so I dodged and I am alive... not doing that again!!!!

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so... El día de los santos is already long past, I couldn't go and pay my respect to my dead and beloved ones... I just couldn't bear the fact...

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I may quit my job I hate my boss, he hates me back so... one day one of us is going to explode or die in a strange car accident

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The husband of one of my aunts died on the 2 of this month... she was devastated (how not?) I'll remember him as a man who don't fear life... he was fearless and never missed anything of live and I think that he did regret nothing when he died (besides living his wife)
what I remember the most about him is a funny thing, once he came to visit us to our hometown and offered to us to take us to our birth town, the road was not pavemented and was a narrow one (did I say that it was at night?) it was a dangerous one back then and no one drive in that over 25km/h (real slow) but he was driving at over 60km/h without fear!!!! and in a turn he left behind a small truck and screamed at the driver "learn to drive son of a b***!!!" so not to say I was scared as hell (I was still a little kid back then). That and the fact that every time they dropped around here they always bring deer meat!!!

He never feared to live, never feared to love at fullest, never feared to eat!!!, never feared to drink or smoke (he should fear that, that was what at last killed him ) never feared to help the needed, never feared to get in fights!!! I am going to miss him... (the loss on his family is beyond comprehension... as it is on any family)
So... I ask you to imitate some of his behavior, do not fear to love, do not fear to live your life to the fullest!!! go and confess your love to the person you love!, go and kiss that person how they have never be kissed before!!! go and do all the things that you always wanted to do but feel fear to do so!!! enjoy life!!!